1. Sometimes it's hard

If its not english coursework, its a drama exam. If its not friends, its the countless valentines day reminders banging on about the fact that your dear freckled friend is, once again going to be flying it solo. The parents wanted to take me out for dinner in london.... I could not conjure a more depressing image even if i tried. 

Happily, i am supposedly going on a 'tourist' day out in London with a friend of mine, should cushion the valentines blow. Fear not though, it's not as if there isn't someone, there is.. its just that person is somewhat out of reach (not as out of reach as say the only love of my life since eight years of age) no, this person is someone I've only recently started contemplating in a different light. I don't know, I'm a little dubious, but so reluctant to stop thinking about, 'what if'. 

Ha. 'What if' is just so questionable, I'd put that phrase under the category of false hope - what if he calls, what if the teacher forgets, what if I go to the gym... bollocks. I say this, but considering the countless times i listened to my own advice before, i doubt very much that this will be different. 

Anyway, who knows, 2011 valentines day could be my fortunes... 'could be' just a substitute for 'what if' I'm just kidding myself now!

Summing up the day - my drama piece is wank... there goes 60% of my AS mark. Single life is like walking through a chocolate shop, without the sweet taste of chocolate. My politics teacher has a screw loose and Glee disappointed tonight.. Rocky Horror - unfamiliar. Anything to live for this week...? Negative.

I leave you with a lyric by the Naked and Famous

Its like punching in a dream, breathing life into the nightmare

Sweet Dreams Kiddies

Eff x