To day, i had an epiphany. We create so much stress for ourselves, and it is completely unnecessary. I've had a hard week, but to my surprise... i actually came out alive. I could have done without the tears, tantrums and tiffs which now i think about it, could have been completely avoided had i just followed my head and not complained about the objectives i was setting myself.
I understand how difficult it is to take your own advice.. its almost impossible, but it isn't difficult to follow your own instructions, you do it every milli second of everyday. But saying that.. feelings are feelings, they're the pollution of the brain. Being girls, we are over whelmed by emotions constantly, and let those emotions swallow us whole, because we don't know what else to do, and we always question whether the opposite sex feel the same. But come to the conclusion that they don't because all they want to do is 'get some gash'.. are we any different though, always thinking of the fit guy - but being girls - still managing to convince ourselves that we aren't shallow like that. I'm sure the majority aren't, but we are so besotted with types... blonde brunette tanned buff... could that not be classified as a form of shallowness, maybe not. Don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to degrade women kind.. just raising a thought.
Anyway, the point was, Keep Calm And Carry On, because that is all we can do sometimes - boys, exams, family, being a teenager, can drive you to insanity. It's alright to stop and breathe and say 'i'm not worried about that, lets carry on', it's just giving yourself a break.
This evening i made the huge mistake of watching peter pan, love the film, love peter.. but i realised - which severely upset me - that im too old for neverland, im a grown up, i cant fly and i will never get to neverland.
I dont know why, but it genuinely took me back a little, i guess i realised that i have to get on with it, i am growing up.
Neverland is out there, i just missed my chance.. so lets not miss out on life.
Endless universe sat in front of me, some say Earth's a tiny obscurity - Jack Penate
Eff x
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