Saturday after work, I enjoyed a surprise mall raid with a work colleague, and i couldn't have planned a better afternoon. We went into Anne Summers and made fun of a couple (who were barely legal) mulling over which outfits to buy. I picked up a lace number next to them indicating to my friend, 'darling this would look wonderful on you'.. in turn followed with... 'but i prefer something edible' which frightened the kiddies a little, tehe. We then played in the disney store, drank smoothies, and assessed our cousin shop, hollister.
That day on the train home, a guy made my day without realising it. I was sat holding a heart shaped box (gift for a friend) he looked at me before getting off the train and said 'happy valentines day'.. smiled and got off. It made me realise how much the little things effect people. You could make someone's day by just wishing them a good day, or in spirit of tomorrows festivities, a happy valentines day. Thank you strange (and good looking) man.
I spent the night with my beautiful 'cutie' - "Blasians Unite!" - we ate crap and watched Eat Pray Love, that film made me realise how much we concentrate on the perfect balance. We spend our lives making sure we have work balanced with pleasure, always making everyone happy, teachers, friends family.. but never stop to think about ourselves - sometimes inner happiness helps to average out everything else we frantically worry about constantly. But then again, we are so caught up in our mind, thinking so desperately about every little detail, in turn leading us to think ever so deeply on subjects which don't need such close attention and instead that spark of spontaneity and passion. We tread so carefully through our thoughts, its holding us back from getting on with life! But this is deemed 'okay' through out society, its the 'mature' way to approach things allegedly. But society, this obscene number of people are all hypocrites. They sit there and tell us to grow up, approach a situation with dignity and a sense of responsibility, then will turn around and say, 'learn from your mistakes', how are we meant to do that if we are so terrified of making mistakes? It would be better to make them sooner than later, no?
Thinking in such depth is like punching in a dream and breathing life into a nightmare.
Valentines day - a friend lectured me about my ridiculous need to sit in my own self pity on this day. But i still can't help thinking why it is taken so seriously then? Maybe if, as a whole, it wasn't considered as such a landmark of a holiday, the solo people will feel less inclined to feel shit.
Unfortunately i wont be enjoying a day out in London as my friend has gone to Devon, the day has been rescheduled to thursday. So it will be ice cream, movies and my mother. An image labeled, depression.
And in faith i left you to it, that's what they sing in the shadows - Maccabees
Eff x
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